Silent Clues

I have been with my husband for 8 years. This is to say from when we first started dating to being married. In those eight years we (more me then him) have developed subtle clues and habits to indicate moods and desires. I find it interesting that couples and just people who you are around a lot create these slight nudges or "quirks" to express some kind of communication that needs to be only between you and the desired recipient. It can be a quiet and unnoticeable nudge or squeeze/twitch of the hand, slight tightening of the eyes or blink, or even an exhale of breath. The list could go on and on depending on the couple and the meanings could have any number of subtle or deep connection.
It is just amazing to me that when you are around a person enough that these small acts can speak volumes about what the other wants and no one else aware (or at least appears to notice). It makes me wonder how many other "silent clues" will be created as Jake and I change, evolve, and grow as a family. Body language is an amazing language to study. The slight idiosyncrasies are what make those squeezes, twitches, and breathes all the more meaningful. It makes you wonder what messages you are sending, on purpose or otherwise, to those round you and how they are being interpreted.

Quarter of a Century

I have officially been a quarter of a century for a full day. I know that I should feel old, but I don't. My visiting teachers came over to say happy birthday and we were talking about how your feel and how you look can be in serious opposition. I had to laugh because she was all "I feel like I'm still 20, but then I look in the mirror and my four kids and remember that I'm not." The question that I had to ask was, why does it matter what you think you should feel like? If you feel like you are twenty you shouldn't begrudge the fact that your number of years may not correspond with your inner person. I say hang on to that youthfulness for as long as possible. There are times when I feel like I am still 18 and feel like I can do anything. It is only when I have those grown-up decisions do I realize I am older than my inner-self. Ick.

I guess what I am trying to get across in my random ramblings is that you are only as old as you allow yourself to feel. Don't cheat yourself out of it.